What are they thinking about me?

Aha.. I phoned a colleague yesterday.. He said they speak highly about me. Dint the God say the same when he was in my reclusive home. I am still afraid of what he thinks about me. Especially when i was repulsive to his feed back.

But I took it eventually, dint I.

Fear has always been at the back; with no idea what they think about me. I was almost in tears after the tiring journey which seemed quite unfruitful. But (WAO) they thought I was fit to be in the (REPUTED) league. HOWZZAT.. But why?

Shouldn't I know why? With no tangible achievements (At least I feel so) why should I be valued basis the paths I took with no regard to results I produced. Hey! I got the answer.. Isn't attitude more important than achievement. I believe it, don't I. May be I got the answer. But then..

Its just a presumption. No body told me what they think about me.. What if they stop thinking the way they think.. say from today.. may be they already have.. I dont know.. I dont know a damn shit...
regret the words..

And.. the question remains.. what do they think about me.. Am I wanting to look Good.. "TRYING TO LOOK GOOD, AVOIDING LOOKING BAD". That's my trap isn't it.

Can some body please tell me.. Are you afraid to tell something to me?